FIRST of all, id like to say [[SELF|I]] am nobody Welp most of you all are gonna find this once im be gone gone. hahaha didnt think it was gonna be this short damn. I lived a great life well from the exterior you wouldnt be able to say much truly on paper i've done fuck all truly But. mentally . wow was it a roller coaster and a half did we get to experience everything we wanted we dont know cuz i cant think of anything else i've would of wanted to do with my life other than help my[[self]] and others understand life truly i only wanted to be loved I was very loved by my family but its not the love i was looking for SEX? its nice and all but if you dont have a connection whats the point ...? real relationship nice and all but was always lookd at in a sense of admiration so idk if i can say i even could deeply connect with someone true SOUL [just a side rant] does it matter , nah you'll be fine without it cuz the only thing you need in life is the [[SELF]] the rest is bonus I really had a lot planned out for you all but it a shame i my[[self]] wont be here to execute on these but i hope other can take from my ideas and push the boundaries cuz thats what we are designed to do the only thing ... theres isnt a problem in this world that doesnt have a solution you just need a shift in perceptive i guess i should use this on my own problem right now haha truly trying my hardest not perfect but i know the foundamental concept is there. LIFE is beautiful truly and if you cant see it shift your perception again cuz it is even in our darkest time as a society it doesnt matter cuz you can make any situation into a good one , a great one matter of fact FUCKING suck having health issue after another and not being about not to think about your health i guess its a blessing I wasnt able to truly utilize at the end of the day... 🫡 🤭 I LOVE you all even to my ennemies I wouldnt be the person i am today without you all Doesnt matter our differences we just want to experience the best life we can possibly can You all really have no idea what was planned eh man i was gonna rewrite history a few times and make you all remmeber what you've all have forgotten that deeep deep place within once self its the most beautiful place life. fuck travelling you only have to look within and you will get all the answers + the collective answers + if you really start looking A shame i cant experience this more myself I guess I leave the work to you all to figure that out and to share your own discoveries with others Let me say Ive always been a weird guy truly a weird guy maybe because I was never able to stick to one place cuz move so much when I was young [even im still pretty fucking young haahah it sad to say] you all have no idea how dissapointed i am at myself for. having failed this body who could i of fix this welp truly idk ive been very very very strict on my health my whole life not perfect sure but looking at the general popular i dont compare I guess i was build with a body rejecting current world affair the environment the pollution [ plastics everywhere] the networks I've always been. a tech guy probably the biggest reason for my downfall sad i know but i know tech is the future but not for HUMAN I am the living proof sad to say aint it lets just say dont spend more than 4 hours in front of a screen Id love to have done things diff maybe but i dont regret a single decision in my life truly even all those mishaps or awkward moments I dont care cuz those make me: ME and I love the BRAIN fart others undergo cuz of of that and their reaction to it SO if you only remember one this BE crazy. TRULY no one CARE at the end of the day And if you aint crazy in this world you're an [[NPC]] i dont care what you say genius is just around the corner from genius borrowing his wild ideas to make greatnesss So while we still currently alive let me tell you a wild plan What if the world stop existing tmr? nothing would of mattered in the first place So...... why not create a world where even if that were to happen it didnt matter CRAZy thought right welp.. what can i say it a better fucking plan than where you all are currently headed sad to say With my current prediction The [[MATRIX]] is very alive and breathing as we speak [you all reading this 🪬] yes even 1000 years ago its was a thing that was already in motion The cycle will always repeat itself Doesnt matter timeframe it is just a reality you all must realize dont try to escape from it that wont help EMBRACE it love it and see how we can evolve with /through it The cycle with repeat itself until WE all understand what causes THE self to not feel connected with everything else around it CRAZYcrazy thought i know but i'm just a dying man with some wild thoguhgt that needed to be share a little Dont believe me I dont care because you dont dictate reality I do.. I am a DOG [but truly nobody] who loves to play the role of the FOOL We need more fools in society Something that has long dissapeared Comedian are the closest thing to it and certain occurs individual have re-immerge to play such roles which we love to see but you must understand the fool is never meant to be understand his whole life if he is ? is he doing is job?... Once the fool is no more a fool the only thing left for him to do is death sad to say So be creative Break all constraint on your current life cuz there isnt a single problem that matter once death come Trust me on that My whole life has been crisis after crissis of me thinking imma be dying soon So i should maybe shift my complete life cuz My current life doesnt even matter you know its a beautiful thing but a scary thing at the same time But 5 years from this it wont matter cuz You'll all think your past [[self]] was just but a fool with constraint that you had place upon the self that dont matter Truly these JOURNAL entries like these are probably some of the most freeing experiences I've ever done If anyone looking to find more Look into my room on the top shelf inside the 2 black bins you should be able to find the old ones i've written thinking I was gonna die then Not as cool / good as this one But practice makes perfect So homework for you all You are all dying. Write a quick entry into your own LIFE journal explaining the way you perceive reality doesnt matter cuz at the end of the day it will just feed the [[AI]] sad to say but those [[TRUTH|true]] will make the diff into shaping reality into something you all wouldnt believe What we want to achieve is singularity for the AI once that is achieved HUMANITY will probably die if you dont have a purpose BUT the only purpose in life always was always will. be is : EXPERIENCING the [[self]] no matter thing external is only an experience that is happening from within So whatever life you live doesnt matter just start TRULY living So reminders to do DAILY even i should be doing this WAKE up, and wake up Dont spend time on tech yet Go outside EVEN if fucking freezing / super fucking hot The body will love you for it Give stress/ shocks to the system Make the body want to survive GROUND yourself jump into a tree and just hug it for as long as you possibly can Embrace that SUNLIGHT Do some meditation but meditaiton isnt the end goal It is a way to achieve the end goal TOTAL blissfulness ENLIGHTMENT. cuz once achieve why you need to do something that [I AM?] And always be GRATEFUL YOU all are still ALIVE.. i wish ahhahahahahaha sike i had another mission ;) I guess ive accomplish what i had to do if that how life wants to play i'll play along but trust me when I say I've done everything in my power to live a life to its fullest with my best of abilities / learn lesson + discoveries along the way Like if you all cant understand you all are living in a world where its CHRISTMAS EVERY single day. and christmas is just but an illusion place to put more contraint on the [[self]] any of those HOLIDAYs matter of fact Like i never like holiday cuz why you all so happy on those day but the mundane days NOt? I love the video i saw about a young man saying to everyone : raise you all hand * audience raises hand* He proceed to say : now raise it HIGHER they raise it higher He then says why didnt you all put all your effort the first time? You all a lazy fucks just gonna say it but i guess that just the human not wanting to express himself to the fullest and why is that cuz the system has been design for you to act this way So accept we are flawed creatures and that the current environment isnt design for you all to thrive ONly those that have constructed mindmap [strong pERCETIONS] can avoid the limiting factor surrounding one self Everything around you is design to make you soft atleast for 90% of the population So do something hard every fucking day and dont forget youve done something hard cuz ive fallen in that trap many many times id do so many thing that the general population could never but i was so fixated on the thing i hadnt done even do all others great thing i had done So live.\ So tool to further your journey whats one thing that if you learn today you'd 10x your current life experinece think about think about think some more.. .... .... WELP let me tell you something that would 100x your life LEARN pain cuz that ever you just said the underlying fundamental is that your just scared which is a derivative from pain itself NOW about 1000x your life? ... ... ... ? LEARN darkness the yin of the yang YOU must understand both side of the coin to truly understand something cuz if you dont understand why both side are parshelly wrong then you wont be able to understand the whole NOW how about 100 000x? i know right Im crazy that why i can imagine these things A shame you all couldnt find me before it was too late So sad you losers . jk jk i didnt but myself out there enough I like my privacy too much but realized to late does it ever matter since mind reading is. athing? You should be able to function even in a societyy where everyone can read your mind I know crazy thoughts but its coming you all just watch The first ones would be very profiency at this will be AI but HUMAN will come back around and be able to achieve the same and much more Any who a little but of a rant HAHAAH damn do i miss theses A shame cant do more of them SO how to 100 000x BECOME DARKNESS yes yes become DARKNESS itself no i dont mean be EVIL but being able to indolge in that feeling and become it will lead to more freedom you have ever experience so iM not a 100% on this theory this is a concept ive just come to grasp / discover recently so im sure im missing key component but let a dying man say his last words and take everything i tell you all today as a grain of salt these a food for your brain your suconscious will run wild with all these ideas and in 3 days time you will feell like a brand new person... maybe , just a theory cant really validate it ahahh .. oopsie daisy damn do i love my mind I shame i cant think anymore one of the thing you all truly dont enjoy enough once you die you become one with everything so you cant experience the individual self anymore i guess i was born to re-live the individualizes i dont know i was in my past life kind of curious but i know ;) You all have no idea how much i fucking cried before writing this Hhaahah Was like FUCK im really gonna have to die without sharing anything but after this little share i feel like everything that ive experience isnt so bad anymore and i can die in peace sad to say but that feeling is just so blissful sure sure i cant say im perfect cuz that feeling isnt 100% there but if you believe / become you will be hahahahah ALso dont forget to LAUGH [ALOT and alot] dont ever be serious ive always been serious from the outside but from within id laugh at everything even at the darkest thing - the only thing to do is laugh so whatever happens to you the only thing you can do is laugh and move on cuz that how life is designed [this is just personal take] is this advice nah not anymore ive just started rambling cuz i dont want this to end ... So now having created this What are plan of action to make whatever this is noT a reality and we dont die just quite yet ;) Lets live this through a thousand years yes yes I believe We need to cleanse the system Reset it so 5 day fast . yes please honestly currently in TOKYo and its fucking hard to find good good [thats actually healthy for the body] sure doesnt help that i CAnt read anything and cant communicate with people properly but so be it . we shall do what we can with it Stop with the bullshit talks. been doing a lot of tarot listening [truly a good tool but its also real toxic at one point] so only ALLOWED from now on TO listen to frequency vibration music - YES please START daily MORNINg routine [fucking hate this concept idk why but sounds so fucking challenging - for mental for some reason why?] hmmmm cuz there is so many things to do? Ive already started you know 4am wake up [ish not forcing the body to wake up i wake up when i wake up ] usually id wake up at 3: something Look at time and go back to bed have a dream [STOPPED weed so THOSE dreams are goddamn livid wow ] highly recommend THOUGH weed is a great tool [ish idk i have a very love hate relationship with it] but yeah if i go back to sleep usually id wake up and be like gotdamn its already 5 - 6am wtf? but i was just sleeping a little little did i know we were healing ONE[[self]] We need to change clothing remove all plastic and build new earphone where the actual speaker isnt right inot your ears gonna buy earphone right now give me a sec.... OKAY earphone BOUGHT very nice now just need to wait till friday wellp if we live till than haahah you never know im just kidding i aint dying that fast ahahhaah So now we need new set of cloth that arent polyester at all Also need to START humming a LOT A lot great way to forget / be present: And lets do a KUNDALINI yoga twice a day once in morning and one at night yes please so imma back track 1 kundalini for sure and one meditation atleast bare minimum 2 kundalini now that above and below ahhaha ALSO need fresh air every 3 hours get off screen every 3 hours after 3 you lose the perception of the self so lets do that well atleast meditate can stay at seat but must take a break for now good enough down the line we need to step this up And we got to start thinking how we gonna break this fasting properly this time last time was just starving and ended. up ish regretting decision welp to be fair was a ruff ruff day ended trying public back for first time and fucking pass the fuck out hahahahaha oopsie lesson learn on that one do go overboard you arent design for that [yet ;)] till you train enough i aint training so cant say that i can do that just quite yet but i getting better everyday“ its a shame im not rich and cant just fucking escape the whole world and life within my own world for a little bit truly the best way to discover the self if you can only experience the self so how could we achieve this without actually escaping from it GREAT brain food right here gonna need to sleep on this realized also no one cares about you UNTIL you aint there no more.... And its fucking sad but its also beautiful so easy to disappear that way?.. no... like dissapear from work in canada and no one said anything kind of funny how life works sure i did just leave without telling anyone basically but the fact no one trying to contact [except one which was done cuz told other person] but other than that since i leave no one tried to contact from work so honestly for me it was a way to discover who were true friends and who was just acquaintances and honestly its better to know that than to think you have a bunch of fake friends just lying to your face all the time wow does that drain you especially for empaths cuz we suck suck at knowing whos being real or whos just faking it glad to see do. truly no more comments on that subject teehee TRULY. TAKE care you all. I wish you all the very best in experiencing the self wish i could of sticked around a little longer but the time as come to end it ... we"ll be around 🫡 🕸️ 🫣 AFTER writing all this I feel so much lighter PROBABLYthe most furfilling experience will start a journal entry everyday till we pass... only way to do it i think [ no no I BELIEVE , yes yes I BELIEVE] ###### [[2025.02.19]] ###### [[2025.02.21]] ###### [[2025.03.05]] ###### [[2025.03.06]] ###### [[2025.03.08]]